Friday, September 28, 2012

In Which I Consider

Dear World:

I'm now staring back at a solid week at the slightly higher medication levels and I'm feeling a little static-y, a little soft around the edges, mental-wise.  Not sure if this is a negative side-effect of the meds or if this is how "normal" people live.  I have time to consider and evaluate before I react to something and there is some little part of me that misses the gut-punch reactions I used to have.  I feel like my emotions are the straight-man in my personal tragically comedic drama of a life.

It's something I'll discuss at my next session, since I'm fairly certain that this is probably part of the core problem.

That's what people do in those things, right?
It's not just bitching and moaning?
Right?

Right?

Sincerely,

Me.

Wednesday, September 26, 2012

In Which I Begin

Dear World:

Last night I started a new chapter that is going to be all about me finding some sort of balance in my life.  It'll suck.  I'll wail and gnash my teeth and declare it too hard.

But, I think I need it and so I'm trying to build up momentum to get me through and to get me over and to get me to the other side.

So, whooo balance.

Sincerely,

Me.